I am undone.

I just received a letter from my friend Matthew, (pictured in the yellow shirt). He is a Kenyan with a an outreach ministry to children he calls Young Disciples Bible School which he runs singlehandedly. His letter seems to me almost like a holy thing; it is so convicting. It shines on me and my life is revealed for what it is. I am an affluent North American traveller. I know children are dying but I am unmoved by the knowledge to do much about it. Real people live day to day and I waste money on little luxuries. I write a blog about my petty spiritual journey, while my friend actually lives the life we are all called to live. My spiritual poverty is revealed by this letter.I am embarassed that my friend thinks highly of me.

Dear Howard and Judy,
Greetings in the most precious Name of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. Thank you very much for writing and God bless you REAL BIG.I Love you and think about you so often. I pray for you every time we have prayer meetings. I would be so glad to see you back in Kenya . We miss you so much.

I am doing quite well. I have been very very busy in the Ministry. I have started a new Ministry among the Children
and this is Reaching Children living with HIV/AIDS.I am not sure whether I have ever told you this. I learned that Most of my Disciples at the Young Disciples Bible were Orphans living with HIV/AIDS. Some of them died. They got it from their Mothers during birth. So God Has been directing me into this new Ministry. I could not avoid because some of my close disciples lost their lives before we really discovered the problem.
It is a real Challenge ever in my Life. My greatest concern and challenge is the taking of the ARV’s.I know you are aware
of the ARV’s.They are very complicated and dangerous drugs if tempered with the dosage.
I adopted one Boy whose name is Kasyoki; he would
have died if I never got him. he was very very sick almost to die. He has now improved and he is now very alright. I am trying to find an Orphanage to put the many Children in need. At least a place I can Monitor the taking of the ARV’s.

The Machakos General Hospital requested me to help them counsel Children living with HIV/AIDS in the Hospital. I have been doing it for the last two weeks. But I feel I will not talk about HIV/AIDS yet I will teach
them other things in Life. How they can become excel in Life and be the best. Talking about HIV/AIDS everyday is wounding them the more. I want them to know that they are capable to do great things.
My Car is nice. It has been so helpful to the Ministry. My greatest challenge is the Loan Repayment Plan*. It has been a real burden to me.A Pastor Friend of mine came to borrow Ksh.1000 Shillings (about $20.00) to travel home today and I was really unable to assist him with any money. Please pray for me that the Lord is going to open other doors for me to pay the Loan. I pay $400 every Month to the Organization*. That has not been so easy for me. The number of Children increased so greatly as we moved the Ministry to the Town and the Van has been helping in picking the kids from the Villages to the meeting centre. I now live at the Mumbuni AIC Church. At the Pastors House. It is a very good place.
May the Lord richly reward you so much for your Love and concern,
With Much Love,
Matthew Kyalo.

*(a ministry that gave him the car on credit)